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DANCING SANTA
"Daddy!" Two yells. She drags him to a halt. "Lights!" Above them, a last gasp of pink light brushes a cornice. "No Daddy," Four says. "Shes pointing over there." He looks down at the girls, packed in mittens and snowsuits and boots. He looks to where Two is pointing. "Well, look at that. Christmas lights," he says. The three of them stare at the string of blue lights in the window of an empty sushi restaurant. "This neighborhood used to be crazy with Christmas lights," he says. "Crazy?" Four asks. "Crazy. Wooden soldiers. Candy canes. Mary and Joseph, plugged in and glowing. All along the Avenue." "Where did they go?" "I wish I knew," he says. An hour earlier, looking for something to buy his wife for Christmas, he discovered the Dancing Santa. Six feet tall, it chugged its arms and wiggled in the window of the Dry Cleaner on Fifth and Garfield. Its jaws snapping open and shut, it sang "Jingle Bells" through the glass. The girls will love this, go crazy, dance. He ran all the way home. Rushing the girls out the door, he forgot his own hat and gloves. Now, with daylight gone, the wind cuts more forcefully up from the harbor. "Daddy!" Two yells. "Youre squeezing my hand!" In front of a boutique, another Santa stands, holding a bottle of coke. "Daddy, look!" Two shouts. "Santa!" "Thats Santa, all right," he says. "But hes not the Dancing Santa." "Wheres the Dancing Santa?" Four asks. "In a minute," he says. His eyes focus on a glint in the window. "Im looking at something. Tell me what Im looking at." "Oh! Skaters," Four says. "Skaters!" Two adds. He picks up Two so she can see the row of miniature chrome skaters. They wear red, or orange, or green painted coats. Silver hair billows from featureless oval faces. They hold the same pose arms stretched, one stiff leg extended behind them. "What else do you see?" he asks Four. "Well, I see sledders," she says. On the top shelf two tiny little girls sit on a rusty flexible flyer. "Sledders," he says. "Two little girls sledding. What do you think? For Mommy? For Christmas?" Four takes a deep breath. "I think thats a great idea!" she yells. "Yeah, yeah, yeah!" Two adds. He takes their hands and wedges the door open with his foot. "Hi," he says to the storeowner, who stares over the rim of his glasses at the girls. "Stay right here girls," he says. "Touch nothing. Can you tell me please, where the skaters, from the window, where they are?" The owner points to a shelf behind him. A lone red skater, her chin dented, stares blankly out the door. "Last one," the owner says. "How much?" "Fifteen dollars." "Fifteen dollars? Theyre two inches tall." "Theyre antiques." "Thats seven-fifty an inch." He holds the girls hands a little more firmly. "Ouch," Four says. Two struggles to break free. "The two on the sled?" he asks. "In the window?" "Not for sale," the owner says. "Not for sale?" "Thats right." "Thanks! Cmon girls." "Why couldnt we buy the sledder girls?" Four asks once they are back on the street. "I guess theyre not for sale," he says. "I guess I was mistaken." "But why?" "I didnt like that place," he says. "Not one little bit." "Daddy! Ride!" Two commands. He picks her up and tucks her under his arm. Her face is glowing red. They pass a new French restaurant. Bundled couples crowd the sidewalk. A tall blonde woman turns, a cell phone pressed to her ear. She nearly tramples Four. "Im in front of the restaurant," she yells into the phone. "Whats that? Im in front of the restaurant!" Daddy pulls the girls through the crowd. "Goddamn it," he says. "Daddy stop pulling me!" Two yells, fighting. They cross the street and stop in front of the dry cleaner. Steel gates are pulled shut. Santa stands still behind the bars, in the dark, staring out into the street. "Darn," he says. "Thats him." "But hes not dancing," Four says. "He was earlier, my friend. Singing too. Singing like a fool." Four looks up at him doubtfully. "Santa dances. I swear. Well come back in a couple of days. Well dance with him. I promise." "Daddy?" Four asks. "Whats that, hon?" "What are we going to give Mommy? For Christmas?" "I dont know, hon." He looks back up Fifth Avenue, at the row of new stores. He thinks of the gifts he discovered down here in past years, always at the last minute. A holy-water statue of Mary and Theresa. A sweeping Buddha. A necklace of crushed sea glass. Ancient magic hidden in dusty glass cases, all gone now, all swept away. "Well find her something," he says. "Maybe up on Seventh Avenue. Lets go try Seventh Avenue." As he turns them away from the dark storefront, a shadow moves from the back of the store. He senses somebody peering out at them. He feels a hand wave. A sustained wind blows between the buildings. Hes so cold he panics. He grips Two closer to his chest. He wants to pick them both up, stuff their warm bodies under his shirt. He wants to run. But he waits, holding them, their breath filled with anticipation. From the darkness, a shaking, gnarled finger reaches between Santas legs and pushes a button. Santa starts convulsing. He churns his arms and pumps his legs. His mouth drops open and he starts singing through the windows, the canned version of "Jingle Bells". The girls scream with joy. Four jumps in the air. Two twists out of his grasp. He takes their mittens again, one in each hand. And there on the sidewalk, in front of a closed and gated dry cleaner, at six oclock on Christmas Eve, they have their dance with Santa. |