That was before there was no way to get to
The other side without going the long way around,
We hadnt yet begun to take ourselves apart,
Oil was just beginning to know what it was,
Was wasnt yet set in its matrix,
I saw tomorrow fixed on a star, on a barge,
Courage, someone said, was all the rage,
That was before wed come to the cutting edge,
The other side might be the other side of a door,
We hadnt yet finished half of what we started,
Oil was just burning over alphabets & mending,
Was was no stranger than night-blooming jasmine,
We hadnt yet begun to know half of what we wanted,
There wasnt any difference between what we started
Or we finished, or so said our new circular arguments
I was accelerating and braking, one on top of the
other. I think I should be thinking more slowly.
I walked outside very quickly.
A hummingbird flew into me.
I open my mouth to let the hummingbird out.
Whether it leaves or not, I dont know.
One day well find a way to unmock whats been
mocked. Unlock it and throw away the key.
It feels unlucky to throw a key away.
I said, whats that, you said its "the sound of
man thinning out his kind" so we paused to listen,
until a dog started barking or a baby was crying.
When I fill a glass with water in the dark
I listen for when its almost reached the top.
Its a sacrament in a religion Im practicing.
A Throwing Away of Some Keys, a sacrament Im
too unevolved to practice. What do you call nostalgia
for things that havent happened yet? Not regret,
no regrets, a willow is a very romantic tree, China,
not Babylon, is its native home, this is said of the
weeping kind most often depicted on cemetery stones.